I hope later in life I can see you as my friend once more. And that was not even a joke.

Wednesday's talk

Even people you love can be annoying sometimes, so just deal with it. 

These days I get annoyed too easily wonder if I should start taking pills 

Monday Lesson

What I finally learned the hard way

Don't ever let your guard down. People will step on you if you do.

if you don't get to choose, just live your life to the fullest.

it's a dreadful weak.feels like killin' myself rite now.

exam::
thursday: CHBE180 & CE180
friday: CHBE162(THERMODYNAMICSSSS!)
monday:MATH198
wednesday:ECON101

hope i can survive this.on friday especially.LOL
p/s:people become very sensitive these days.trying very hard not to offend anyone.

dont keep your distance =(

you so far from me yet i have no way to pull you back.
i want you to be with me yet i have to let you go.
you wont know im feeling like this yet im hoping you would know
i love you so much yet i have no way to tell you this
even  though u always here with me yet i feel you so distant

im glad you with him yet why im aching in my heart
im maybe sound so selfish yet i keep thinking this way
i've never feel this way yet for you im having this foolish thought
i love you as my sister and you have to know that

and so i kill this feeling for you,for your happiness and for your trust
but you ought to know im here for you
and i will smile for you in the end

p/s:ntah knpe semua post lately ni emo2.someone ketuk kepala sket boley?haih.

u just made my heart flutter.and i hate it

2 things in mind.

never ever see a person with your eyes.see with ur heart.
midnight talk always lead to something disastrous.

p/s:haih.sori la kpd spe yg berkenaan

emo

tnk sekola esok boley takkk.

and i was very frustrated.about everything.even lays couldnot help.*sigh*

note:please snow come fast.i dont wanna go to school.

we have to break up

TO: MR GENERAL BIOLOGY SLIDES
FROM:SYAZWANI ZAKWAN



my dearest bio slide,


how are you feeling today? i am very sorry that i locked you up in that stupid small drawers for the last 4 weeks.but i really could not take it anymoree.i know that we've been dating for a while and we have fun together even though i hardly find any jokes in any of your love slides. and then you said that you madly in love with me but still we know something is missing somewhere. we dont have the "chemistry", the feeling  to save this relationship.and yes i want to breakup with you.and im very sorryy for this.


yess i admit at the beginning i said  i will try to love you back. i gave you hope i make you believe you are the one for me. i am sorry for what i did say but it just dont turn out so nicely for us.you wasnt meant to be with me. everytime i go to see you all i can hear was nothing.NOT A THING. maybe its my fault i did not give my full attention to you but ive tried so hard! i never skip our dates. i went even if my other friends go back to their dorm and sleeppp!I gave my full commitment to this relationship but what did you give to me??only more and more uselesss love notes that i kept almost a pile in my dorms!


i'd suffered a lot because of you.you treated all your medical's friends nicely but why you did this to me?? I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY WITH YOU! your friends of prokarya,eukarya,cells and what-other-crap-things are very happy with you up until one point, i fell like i dont belong in your world. why the heck i should consider to be your girlfriend if i have to remember all you generations: your grandfather your long lostt uncle and even your great222 grandfather??! i seriouslyy dontt careeee about them!


just dont feel bad about yourself. its not you.it was me in wrong, completely. and i know it will be very hard to get over me. who says it won't?*it supposed to be hard* but you'll find better person nicer person than me.you will have a wonderful moment again with your new lovers.you can tell all your love slides, facts, jokes if you want.and ill be packing up your things * your momentos, love notes ready to throw them out of my room. but please just this one timee..be nicee to me. dont just walk away like that. i still need you at least until tomorrow.so just dont make my grades worser.and dont be too harsh on me please?

"I don't know how to not love you, I only know how to not let you go"


sincerelyy,
me

final2!

ok.

done with economy.

my japanese final in another day and the next day its gonna be a biology dayyyy!

cant tell how much im excited for biology.yess!im going to kill that paper.literally and figurativelyy.

cepatla breakkk!

n its snowing a lot right now.

so pleasee snow heavily bnyk2 hari!

                                                               HAPPY HOLIDAYS

its snowinggggg.but it happens shortly sighh.. i know i should not sleep to much this morning. the moment i open my eyes, it clearly snowing and when i started to gett all excited, it stopped.

this is just the begiiningg!the days after this will be all white!


                                 memoryy from last snow!

how time flies..
now i'm waiting to wrap up my third semester here.
its another three weeks before the holiday *yeay*
*btw, its also another 4 weeks for florida yeay.omg excited2!*

i just finish up touring the other blogs and
mmg sumpah sye mls nk update blog.
its not that it take time or complicated and believe me i loveeee to write.
but kadang2 the feeling need no expression.ok hrp korg tk cube nk phm ape bnde aku melalut nih

btw, sumer org mcm tngh sebok2 nk ckp feeling kawan2 nih. and tetibe terase nk write a post about this.ngehngehngeh*pdhl mls da nk tngk hw*

ok ckp bnde laen pulok.mlm ni tetibe pkir nk recap ape feeling ble first2 jd sophomore.
well bile jd sophs(its term for 2nd year student btw) rse mcm matured sket kot.matured in action matured in study.ok malu sekejap sbb ngaku sendiri.*kah7*.tapi mcm betul je. tk ke?

erm da matured dr segii ape yek...
*ok this is strong.waktu freshman selalu stay dlm blik n become ulat buku.sumpah tak tipu.heloo berjam2 kott berchenta ngan calc tuuu.maybe org ckp bagus, tpppp seyes tder life. mmg tder life.never ade life. so ble da msuk sophs niii sumer bnde nk bt. haaa amek ko nmpk sket dunia.dulu tk penah kisah psl jln 21st ke, jln nk gi walmart ke, jln ape2 ke. kalaw sesat tu mmg selamat la. but bler da sophs sebok2 la nk amek lesen sbb nk jlnnn.kah8. walmart tu smpai muntah hijau da tyap2 kali free pegi.waffle house pon sme jugak la.haha.

* n then one other thing i noticed. people start to change. in a good way of course.  be more open to each other(nie da boley syap cter psl awek pakwe expakwe sub spare part sumer bnde la) tk ke open nmenye?
in freshmen year u never think about others u never wanna care u never wanna know about them. why bother? you have your life to put your worries into. but now all that do matter.  and somehow you feel closed.

*ok dulu tak nk bohong tnk tipu mmg menyampah jugak dngn certain2 person. bajet sngt, control sngt loud sngt and ksr sngt. pokoknye org2 yg eksotik+suke bt hal sendiri+tak care perasaan orang by my opinion mmg tkkn selamat.mmg sumer syap la aku kutuk2. haa tmbh dosa aku free2 terima kaseh bnyk2. but now, tipu la kalaw ckp tk kisah but somehow da bole adapt kot. * kalaw nk compare im probably the candidate if org nk kutuk2 ke ape, tapi mmg tk kisah kot hahaha*.

ok now the fun part. the picturessss..ok enjoy.

    family pics from gatlinburg.

    up on the hill. while riding cable car

  

    my dearieee.love u guys!

    notin more to say.happy!class of 2013+one of 2011

conclusion nyee.. you guys are the most diverse people i ever met.thank God for letting me having you guys as friends. lets make that bond greater shall we?love u!


**"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Others stay awhile, make footprints on our hearts and we are never, ever the same."**